Man, I have one serious case of the doldrums. I’m doing everything I’m supposed to, but the wind won’t blow and my weight hasn’t moved in months. Everyone keeps telling me that I am still showing changes, and I’m sure that is true, but the complete lack of weight loss is really starting to wear me down. I am going to see a new, highly recommended nutritionist on Oct. 29th. I have high hopes for the new relationship. She has quite a bit of experience and success with people like me and it just feels like the next right thing to do. But until then I am stuck in a holding pattern. It’s getting harder and harder to stay motivated. I’m not working out as hard (and it has not made a difference) and I haven’t written a blog post in a week. This is not good…Not knowing what to do is one of my least favorite pass times.
I have been reading several articles about diet and nutrition, and it’s startling how much of current thought and practice around food, diet, etc… has almost no basis in actual data or research. There’s a great article on Wired.com about the lack of data and the just plain bad science that forms the foundation of most of our current thinking, and some of the new studies that are currently underway that should bring some new information to the discussion. I just want to know my JOB, damn it. How can I believe in the guidance of professionals when their information is so unreliable? Salt causes high blood pressure/salt DOESN’T cause high blood pressure… High carb/low fat… no wait, low carb/high protein… don’t eat eggs, no – eggs are good… AHHHHHHHHHH!
In the meantime, I’m trying to focus on the things I CAN do something about. I am spending time actually trying to imagine and visualize what it might look and feel like to be 60 lbs. lighter. Looking at pictures from the early ‘80s and coming to believe… Elisabeth at Redbird is going above and beyond on the Pilates and apparatus training, helping me focus in the things I CAN do, and I just met a former UFC fighter who wants to sit down and talk to me about what I’m doing and how he might help. I still pretty much hate working out, and he thinks that with a little coaching he might be able to change that. I have my doubts, but I’m willing to try anything.
One foot in front of the other. 16 days to go…