Inertia – put simply, an object in motion tends to stay in motion unless it is acted upon by an external force. In this case the motion I am referring to is health and fitness-related. The gym, the diet – all of it. And the external force is the rest of my life. Like the drag that the concrete causes on car tires, my life has slowly, inexorably worn my motion down and I am having a hard time finding the energy to push it back up to speed.
I know that I am at another of those break points. The place where people tend to bail out and quit whatever life changing thing they are attempting. I also know that my first ideas on how to go about rebooting my program are not the right ones. I want to throw myself into more exercise. It is simple, I understand it, and if I do it right, I will grind myself even further down. No, I am doing OK exercise-wise. Food is where I need to spend my energies. And every fiber of my being is balking.
I spent some time thinking and meditating on where I am, where I’m struggling and what needs to happen. Here’s what I realized. First, I have not made as much progress as I thought on the compulsive eating thing. I thought that my only problem was dinner time, when the truth is, the reason I am doing so well with the first part of the day is because I am on a desert island food-wise. I take my breakfast and lunch with me to work and that’s the only food available, so that’s all I eat. If, for some reason I have to leave the office, I still struggle (and sometimes fail) not to hit a drive thru while I’m out. Dinner and the hours after have remained a challenge, and it is dinner itself where I often consume too many calories. So… what to do?
Here’s what I have decided to do. This Sunday I am going to prepare a weeks’ worth of breakfasts, lunches AND dinners, and I am ONLY going to eat the pre-prepared food. I am committing to this for one week. The diet will probably be very simple, eating much the same thing every day, but I don’t care. I just need to have the experience of eating EXACTLY the right amount of food with no wiggle room and no grey areas. I am aiming to 1600 calories a day. I am hopeful that at the end on one week I will have gained enough experience to continue, but I am not going to think about that right now. First things first, as they say.
Wish me luck.