Sometimes I forget the real reason that I am attempting to make all these changes in my life. And then I have a weekend like this last one and life finds a way to remind me.
I get very fixated on numbers and goals, as though hitting the right calorie count for the day or getting to my target weight is actually the goal. It isn’t. The whole reason I am doing all of this is to improve the quality of my life, both today and for years to come. I guess that I have been letting the small, short term goals distract me from the big picture.
Last weekend I took my darling wife and our girls on vacation to South Padre Island for my wife’s birthday. This is the third year we have done this. The fact that we have done it several times before helped me to realize just how much ground I have covered in my journey to become fit and healthy. The first two times we went I basically struggled to do anything. Even just walking on the sand was an arduous enough task that I avoided it whenever possible. This time I just went and went. I walked several miles every morning, played Frisbee in the surf with my girls, body surfed swam in the pool and generally tore it up without even realizing I was doing it. It was only as I thought back over the trip while we were driving home that I realized what a cool accomplishment it all was for me. I was able to be as active as I wanted to be and just enjoy myself without having to make any concessions because of my size or physical condition. Pretty cool…
I went back to the gym this morning and hesitantly got onto the scale for the first time in two weeks. I assumed that I put on a couple of pounds, and I just hoped that it wasn’t too much. Imagine my surprise when I stepped on and realized that I didn’t gain an ounce! I didn’t lose any weight in the last two weeks, but I didn’t gain any either, and I have not gone to the gym or logged my food in all that time. I guess that everything is starting to become a habit… just what I do now. That’s awesome, because it means that I am ready to take it up a notch. I am back to working out at the gym on the days I am NOT at Redbird doing Pilates or Primal 7, and I am back to logging my food so that I can get used to the changes that the nutritionist suggested last week. Hopefully this will help me move to the next plateau in weight loss, fitness and diet.
But the best part is that I feel better NOW. No more deferring the payoff – now is what I have and now is what I’m working for.