I haven’t written anything in a week… It’s been that kind of week. Swamped at work, busy at home – you know the drill. Bu I am back at it now, and that’s what matters. The writing (and the comments, feedback and support you guys give me) really help keep me going. That matters, especially at a time like this.
Lord, the last couple of weeks have been trying… I made the decision to try and cut my calorie intake a little more to try and generate some (hell ANY) weight loss, and it has proven challenging in an unexpected way.
Since I started the Slimdown Showdown, I have been able to keep things pretty much in line food-wise, but I have really been struggling with food the last couple of weeks; compulsive eating, less than stellar choices. It’s like, having decided to take on the food issue, it has reared its head in an ugly way trying to protect itself. I am really having to break it down minute by minute in an effort to get things back in line and on track. I am not sure what changed. I’m not sure figuring out what caused it will help. I am making some progress and with a little luck and a little help I am sure I can get things back to where they should be.
I had to bow out of the Tabata class – for now… I tried to pace myself, but moderation is not something I am very good at (go figure) and so I ended up completely overdoing it in last week’s class. No one to blame on that one but me. I am grateful to Elisabeth at Redbird for helping me to admit that I’m not ready for it yet. We talked about what I can do to prepare myself for the class and I have begun to add squats into my cardio workouts at the gym. It was the squats that killed me, so it’s the squats I need to do. I’m starting SLOW – 30 squats this week, and 30 squats and 30 kettle bell swings next week. I’ll add some lunges in after that and continue to add sets and reps until I can start to approach the 180 squat total I did in the Tabata class. 1800 squats with no prep at all… I am a genius sometimes.
Just the last few days of surrendering to the fact that I need to get refocused and committing to doing so has breathed a little life back into the process for me. I’ve lost 4 pounds, I’m looking forward to tomorrows Pilates class and to getting back into the groove.