You know, I think I’m living under the delusion that since I’ve been doing this whole workout thing for a few weeks now I actually know what the hell I’m doing. I’m trying to learn to push hard on my workouts, and I’m trying to learn to listen to my body, but I’m not really doing either of those things with any intelligence or follow through.
My body has been telling me for 2 or 3 days and I need to just take a couple of days off. My workouts over the last 3 or 4 days haven’t been all that hard, so a day off doesn’t make any sense. so I just keep pushing forward. Apparently the fact that I’m just plain exhausted doesn’t seem to enter into the decision making process at all.
This morning I finally hit the wall. By the time I finished my walk this morning I was compltely done. I went to the gym at lunch, but didn’t work out, I just sat in the hot tub and the sauna. I got back from the gym I did a little research, and it turns out that sitting in the sauna burn as many calories as walking on a treadmill at three and a half miles an hour. So I didn’t even actually take it a day off even though I didn’t work out. Awesome…
It’s weird that I’m now at a place where I hate not being able to work out, even though I don’t even like working out. I’m trying to keep my eyes on the prize, and it’s hard to do sometimes. But but my body finally start screaming I guess I can listen to it. Slow, steady progress is not something I’m particularly good at. Unfortunately it appears to be the only way to get what I want to go, so I guess that’s what I’ll do.
I’m trying to learn to life on life’s terms… near as I can figure, there really isn’t another option. On the upside, the additional prayer and meditation is totally making a difference in my evening eating struggles. I’m not fighting inappropriate eating nearly as much as I was a week ago. Sure I still have thoughts about eating stupid stuff I shouldn’t eat, but I don’t actually do it anymore. So I guess I’ll keep on top of that too. The food part is twice as important as exercise to weight loss, and I need all the help I can get.