Sometimes I struggle with the concept of willingness. I confuse willingness with wanting to. Willingness doesn’t mean wanting to do a certain thing, it means knowing it needs doing and getting on with it. Consistency, that’s the key – consistency and momentum. Continuing to do things over and over, day in and day out that will ultimately help me achieve my goal. Whether I want to or not.
I always hear other people talking about how once they had been working out it for a while, it became something that they craved – something they look forward to. I guess I’m just not that guy. I like how I feel when I exercise regularly. I like how it feels to know that I am a guy who works out regularly… but there’s no part me that actually enjoys the exercise itself. Once again, it’s getting on with it rather than waiting around till I want to. And if I waited till I wanted to nothing would ever change. Everyone says “Things change”, but in my experience the only change when you make them change.
Another cool thing that I’ve discovered is that when I set clear goals and parameters, it keeps me moving in a more consistent manner. I’ve set daily goals for calorie intake (1800) and calorie burn (1000), and as long as I am close to those numbers I feel like I’m doing OK. Without a metric to measure things against I have no real idea if I’m doing what I’m supposed to or not. Even when I’m messing up I’m messing up within a couple hundred points of where I’m supposed to be so it’s not really all that big of a mess up. I mean, I like the fact that when I eat too much its 1923 calories instead of 1800, and when I don’t burn enough calories for the day its 915 instead of a thousand. I can live with that sort of margin for error. I understand that even a small variations will, in fact, slow me down at getting to my goal, but it won’t derail me completely. I like that I have become a countable enough to feel bad about 100 point one way or the other. I guess that’s a good sign.
Willingness… wanting to… whatever. I am setting some new goals next week in the hopes of pushing through the plateau I’ve been stuck on for a month. The only thing that makes that possible is the consistent manner in which I have been hitting my current goals. Every day builds on the last. Tomorrow stands on the shoulders of today. No days off.